boredom at work makes me feel miserable and tired?

“One of the chief causes of fatigue is boredom.”

“We rarely get tired when we are doing something interesting and exciting.”

“If you are a mental worker, it is seldom the amount of work you do that makes you tired. You may be tired by the amount of work you do not do.”

As I was reading my book this morning, I stumbled upon a pretty interesting chapter entitled “How to Banish the Boredom That Produces Fatigue, Worry and Resentment”.

The gist of the chapter can be summarized by the 3 above quotes. Basically, it gave examples of people who were feeling fatigue when they were bored and feeling energized and exciting when they did something that they found interesting.

It even gives an example of 2 days that we probably all experienced.

The first day is mostly an unproductive day where we set out to do tasks, but because of meetings, interruptions, phone calls, etc. We somehow find ourselves super exhausted and tired at the end of that day even though we did absolutely nothing productive.

The second day is a day where everything just clicks. We’re in the zone. We work and work and work and get so many things done. Yet, at the end of the day, instead of feeling exhausted from all the energy spend doing productive things, we feel energized and usually sleep like a baby.

Sounds familiar? because it does to me.

I’ll argue that it might also have something to do with getting “victories” in the day and that, accomplishment is probably another reason that we feel energized and excited; however, I can’t argue with the fact that I’ve always felt pumped whenever I was doing something interesting and was “working my ass off”.

Now what does that have to do with my current situation you ask? Well, as you might know because of the countless times I wrote about it, I don’t exactly like my work and consequently, it leaves me drained and tired at the end of the day. No bueno. I don’t want that.

The solution as outlined in the book is to find ways to make your work exciting and interesting ! This isn’t the big revelation though because I’ve heard that thousands of times beforehand and it didn’t change anything.

The eureka moment I had today was the fact that while I had the brilliant idea of making my work interesting to feel more energized during the day, at that precise moment, there were 5 words that popped in my mind “I do not want to.”

WOW !

What’s going on here Nick? Why in god’s mind wouldn’t you want to make your work interesting and feel a little bit more exciting, energized and overall, happier probably?!

Because I’m a fucking shit that likes to loath in my misery? Maybe.

However, as we all know, life isn’t always that black and white. It’s always a certain shade of grey.

This shade of grey specifically made me realize two things.

  1. The reason why I didn’t want to make work interesting was because I was afraid that if I do find it interesting, then I wouldn’t have a reason to leave anymore. This means that deep down, I probably don’t like my job and so I was finding reasons to leave ASAP. That wasn’t necessarily healthy.
  2. It made me realize that while I’m still here, I can probably try to make it more interesting ! Since I’ll be here for another x months, might as well enjoy it a bit more. This one will be a bit harder for me to do, but I’ll try.

To conclude, I guess I’ll try to make my job more interesting and see if it helps with my happiness.

PEACE